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PhotographyEmpire at Dusk: An Afternoon at the Belvedere
Eight photographs from a clear autumn afternoon at Vienna’s Belvedere, 14 October 2026.
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Technology · European CompetitivenessWhy Europe Is Falling Behind: The Conflict Between Waterfall Institutions and DevOps
Europe’s industrial success shaped institutions that prioritize planning, standards and approval. When technological competition depends on continuous deployment and real-world feedback, how does that institutional legacy constrain the capacity to iterate?
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Games · Honor of Kings · Season Review
Don't Throw a Lead; Don't Lose Heart When Behind
Mei Liu's Honor of Kings S44 season review: how a five-player team developed a shared economic model, jungle invasions, lineups and late-game positioning, with a radar chart for every member.
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People · Cognitive Structures
Three Forms of Peak Intelligence: von Neumann, Feynman, and Grothendieck
Von Neumann organised vast spaces of information, Feynman made equations run as physical processes, and Grothendieck rebuilt the space in which a problem could be posed. Their differences reveal why intelligence has no single highest form.
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Self-Research · Cognitive Structure
How My Mind Works
I take in information at the scale of a page, turn physical and abstract phenomena into equations and dynamic models, and revise my understanding through prediction errors and structural parallels across fields.
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Commentary · AI and Platform Boundaries
Boycotting Anthropic Is Everyone's Responsibility
Anthropic can observe inputs to and outputs from Claude, but not what users do with those outputs after they leave its platform. The author challenges both its evidence for distillation and its assertion of illegality.
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Science · Mathematical Methods
If the Navier-Stokes Equations Are Solved, What Might Change in Finance and Nuclear Fusion?
The value of a mathematical breakthrough may lie in the methods it creates. From American options to plasma control, this essay considers where research on the Navier-Stokes equations might lead.
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Essays · Times
Four Decades in the Life of China’s Post-80s Generation
From the lingering routines of the planned economy to industrialisation, the internet, mobile life and AI, China’s post-80s generation has lived through changes that elsewhere unfolded across several generations.
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Art · Looking
How We Appreciate Art
Art keeps changing its forms, yet the artist is always condensing reality, emotion, thought, inspiration and context into a key frame. Recognising this is a decisive beginning in the appreciation of art.
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Not Long Ago
In memory of Chinese rock musician He Yong. An original song about unfinished questions, a table left at dawn, and the years that quietly passed.
Cognition · Abstract Thinking
Metaphorical Thinking: You May Only Think You Understand
Metaphors can help you begin to understand. Depend on them, and the feeling of understanding can keep your thinking shallow and obstruct the development of abstraction.
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Music · MV
Blue Hour
Before dawn, the streetlights still glow and the world holds its breath. Blue Hour is a psychedelic electronic rock song that travels from deep-blue stillness into the return of sunlight and ordinary life.
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AI · Cognition · Cross-Domain Abstraction
A Truth Model for Large Language Models: A Conjecture on Cross-Domain Abstraction
Could connections across fields help large language models reach deeper abstraction? A conjecture informed by self-observation explores the difference between approaching a hypothetical truth core and building internal coherence.
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Music · Times · Essays
Remembering He Yong
Remembering He Yong is also a way of remembering the force we are losing: a reflection on the Hung Hom stage, changing times, and the fullness and urgency of the desire to express ourselves.
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Technology · Language · AI
Could Classical Chinese Be a Better Way to Compress LLM Context?
A small token-counting experiment suggests that Classical Chinese may offer a useful reference for compact, readable context inside large language models. This is a conjecture, not a scientific conclusion.
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Technology · Games · Mathematics
What a Five-Stack Should Actually Practise: From Raising Individual Ceilings to Converting Team Strength
For experienced five-stack players, further individual practice often yields very little. A mathematical model of theoretical ability, execution, cooperation and stability shows why training time is better spent converting strength the team already has.
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Essay · Mathematics and Learning
Why People Struggle to Learn Mathematics
Many students learn mathematical metaphors and cover a large bank of problem types without ever building an abstract layer of definitions, relations, and transferable reasoning.
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Essay · Language and Science
Why Pure Chinese Struggles to Enter the Abstract Layer of Modern Science
Chinese can transmit scientific results, but it struggles to provide the semantically neutral containers that modern science needs to create new abstractions, formal languages, and theoretical tools.
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Technology · AI and Computers
The Computer Knowledge Topology for the AI Era
From hardware, operating systems and cloud infrastructure to large models, RAG, agents, harnesses, loops and graph engineering, this essay maps five distinct knowledge domains and the capabilities each one requires.
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Essay · AI and Thought
When Thinking Becomes a Multi-Pipeline Process: More Thoughts on Agentic AI
Agentic AI turns intellectual work from deep work in one pipeline into many pipelines moving at once. It amplifies human ability, but it can also drain the thinking process and make breadth look like depth.
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Essay · AI and Research
I Spent August Immersed in Agent AI
A month of intensive Agent AI use connected my research in partial differential equations, game modelling, algorithm experiments, personal software and family archive work into one growing personal system.
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Technology · Games · Algorithms
Once Five Players Queue Together, the System Is No Longer Calculating Five Individuals
When a five-stack enters matchmaking, the system must estimate more than five hidden ratings. It must price individual ability, team synergy, composition fit and network value. This essay explains a plausible online model for fast five-stack matchmaking and shows how a fixed team can organise drafts, shot-calling and stopping rules.
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Technology · Games · Algorithms
When You Queue Solo, What Is the System Actually Arranging?
In a profit-first matchmaking system, a solo player is one node in a ten-player optimisation. This essay uses Bayesian updating, EOMM and combinatorial optimisation to explain solo queue, then offers practical ways to control hero choice, match risk, play time and spending.
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Technology · Games · Algorithms
Who Is the System Optimizing?
Under a profit-first assumption, TrueSkill, EOMM, PCA, GNNs, survival analysis, and match optimization can be recombined into a commercial Bayesian machine that learns players, predicts value, and allocates experiences.
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Music · Original MV
The Lone Horse
A Chinese-style R&B song inspired by Li Bai’s ‘Seeing Off a Friend’: a pavilion, a setting sun, a broken willow, and a lone horse become a farewell with no road back.
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Essay · Language and Learning
Learning a Language Is Not Putting New Subtitles on the World
Two languages are not tables whose entries line up one by one. Translation can build a bridge and grammar can calibrate, but real learning connects sound directly to scenes and actions. Fluency forms first; accuracy then gradually converges.
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Explainer · Cognition and AI
The Loss of Intelligence, Part II: When AI Answers for Us, Who Is Still Forming Judgement?
AI can make the combined system more capable without making the user stronger. This essay examines how answers can end curiosity too early, and how metacognition, multidimensional databases and timeline thinking can protect cognitive sovereignty.
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Explainer · Cognition and AI
The Loss of Intelligence, Part I: Why Does Thinking Get Harder as Information Grows?
Short video does not simply make people less intelligent, but it may cut sustained thought into fragments that must constantly restart. This essay uses attention switching, dopamine, cognitive peaks and intellectual capital to explain the change.
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Essay · Mathematics and Time
Every Longing Must Meet Again
Beginning with the Poincaré recurrence theorem, this essay proves why a finite measure-preserving system returns infinitely often, then turns ‘every longing must meet again’ into a romantic proposition that still respects the boundaries of the mathematics.
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Personal Research · Cognition and AI
The Loss of Intelligence
Starting from intellectual power, decaying cognitive peaks and the dissipation of intellectual capital, this essay examines how short video fragments thought, how AI flattens the process of thinking, and how metacognition, multidimensional databases and timeline thinking can protect cognitive sovereignty.
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Music · MV
The Lotus Blooms Late
A female folk song born from four lines about youth passing and the hundred days pressing on. Over acoustic guitar and a restrained reggae pulse, a late-blooming lotus waits through spring, and for someone who never looks back.
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Personal Research · AI and Systems
From Loops to Graphs: Building Convergent Intelligent Systems with Entropy Assessment and Human Authorisation Nodes
From loop engineering to graph engineering: a formal account of dual AI Judges, module quotient graphs, information gain and human authorisation nodes in a cycle of entropy expansion, verification and evidence-based reduction.
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Finance · Wealth
Refuting Musk: Relative Wealth Is What Separates Rich from Poor
Musk believes AI and robots will bring extreme abundance. But plentiful goods do not settle who owns the productive system, and comfort is not the same thing as equality or freedom.
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Technology · AI and Copyright
Claude’s Watermark Is Contaminating Authors’ Copyright
Claude embeds a hidden watermark in text in the name of compliance with the EU AI Act. Because that signal cannot distinguish proofreading from rewriting or full generation, it casts suspicion of machine authorship over work written by people.
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Music · MV
Beside Me
They are still beside me, yet I have already begun to miss them. An English blues jazz song about intimacy, distance and the coming dawn, with English and Chinese subtitles embedded in the original music video.
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Music · MV
Le parfum de ton absence
A French song about absence, memory and a love left unfinished. In the bilingual music video, the French lyrics and a poetic Chinese rendering follow the music line by line.
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Journal
Saudade: You Are Still Here, and I Already Miss You
Saudade is the longing that can begin before loss: someone is still beside you, yet you already know the moment will one day become memory.
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Notes
Rebuilding Mathematics Education: From Number and Shape to Modern Math
A curriculum that begins with number and shape, runs algebra, geometry and analysis in parallel, and reaches modern mathematics through proof and connection.
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Notes
Will Transformers Become Bayesian Once Compute Crosses a Threshold?
Bayesian adapters, attention and in-context inference may help Transformers represent uncertainty, update hypotheses and choose when to ask, search or wait.
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Notes
Bayesian Probability and How to Live With Uncertainty
Bayesian thinking begins with partial evidence, updates beliefs without turning every new signal into a verdict, and separates probability from action.
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Fiction · Serial Preview
I Finished My First Novel. It’s Called I Misjudged You
I Misjudged You, a nine-part ensemble novel, will soon begin its serial run. The story starts at a Tianjin school in 1997, opens into a widening world, and repeatedly returns the act of judgement to the reader.
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Music · Lyrics
Harbor
The finished version of Harbor: night wind, tides and longing carried by acoustic guitar and a percussive rhythm, with word-level lyrics synced to the original recording.
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Notes
What the Bellman Equation Can Teach Us About Life
The Bellman equation offers a way to think about life as a sequence of decisions: weigh today's reward, the next state and the options that remain.
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Notes
A New Definition of Right and Wrong Through Entropy
A decision is right when it reduces avoidable uncertainty, mismatch, irreversible harm and displaced disorder relative to the path not taken.
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Notes
Loop Engineering: Where Autonomous Systems Must Stop
A practical architecture that separates goals, execution, judgment and human authorization so autonomous AI systems know when they must stop.
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I dreamed of homeomorphic manifolds, then used them to analyze calligraphy
A dream about homeomorphic manifolds became a working model of Chinese calligraphy built from topology, geometry, finite-scale ink and brush dynamics.
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Technology · Deep Learning
How Stiffness Constraints and Information Entropy Can Work Against Deep Learning, with Further Implications: An Interactive Illustration
Starting from the FE-E experiment, an interactive timeline and switchable metrics reveal how stiffness, mass and information-entropy constraints can work against learning, before extending the findings into a framework for observation and educational intervention.
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When stiffness and entropy constraints backfire in deep learning
An FE-E experiment found smoother gradients and steeper loss slopes without earlier learning, suggesting that stiffness and entropy may work better as observers than controllers.
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Music · Video
Wujing
Wujing, a dark gothic death metal video with landscape-format lyrics.
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Music · Lyrics
I Can’t Hear Clearly
You are so close to me, and still so far away. The window stays open, autumn passes through, and silence remains between two people.
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Technology · Ideas
Breaking the Entropy Wall: Brains, AI and Gödel Incompleteness
Information entropy and neural-network bottlenecks reveal why a closed system with finite parameters must contain blind spots it cannot compress or learn.
Move the entropy slider, watch particles strike the wall, and compare a closed AI with an open brain that continues to absorb feedback.
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Philosophy · Mathematics
The Yoneda Lemma: Everything Is Relation
To know an object is to know the sum of its relations with everything else: an interactive philosophical note grounded in category theory.
Follow morphisms, functors and natural transformations to see how an object can be characterised by its relations with the whole world.
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Notes
Yu Deng won the Fields Medal. The profiles still did not explain what he proved
Beyond the Fields Medal profiles: how molecular collision graphs connect Newtonian reversibility, Boltzmann entropy, cryptographic diffusion and the arrow of time.
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Notes
A Trump Empire? Six Questions About America's Legal Order
Six questions about executive power, the courts, political opposition and whether America's legal order can withstand a second Trump presidency.
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Economics
The Middle East Is Heating Up. Markets Should Stay Calm About Hormuz
A June 2025 reading of Iran's Hormuz threat across oil, crypto, U.S. stocks, the Fed, China's supply chains and A-shares.
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Economics
The Swiss Franc Is Too Strong. Is It Still Worth Owning?
Why the Swiss franc surged in 2025, what a strong currency does to Switzerland, and why I see CHF as a hedge rather than a trade.
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Notes
How Harvard Could Fight Trump: From the Courts to an Education Supply Chain
A May 2025 analysis of Harvard's SEVP lawsuit, its constitutional arguments, and a plan to de-risk higher education beyond U.S. borders.
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Choosing an Education Path in China: School, Money and the Family Behind It
A blunt look at international and public education in China, the financial risks families take, and why parents matter more than the school label.
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A Preface for People Trying to Make Sense of Money, Technology and Their Own Lives
Why I started writing, what twenty years in engineering, sales and procurement taught me, and why this blog ranges across money, technology and the times.
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Economics
Investing and Trading Are Not the Same Road to Wealth
Investing and trading use different clocks, skills and risk controls. Here is why most non-professionals need a long-term plan first.
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Notes
What Wealth Actually Means: Money, Assets, Liquidity and Freedom
Wealth is not the same as cash. A useful framework separates liquidity from assets, then asks whether you can earn, keep and actually use what you own.
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Economics
The Tax Rule Behind America's Retreat from China R&D
A look at how Section 174's five-year and 15-year amortization rules changed the economics of American R&D centers in China.
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Essay
America Chooses the Cave: What Trump’s Tariff Hammer Is Really For
Written in April 2025, this essay asks who would ultimately absorb the tariff shock and why the US economy might feel the hammer’s recoil first.
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Notes
Does an AI Decoupling Bill Run Into the First Amendment?
A narrow constitutional question raised by Josh Hawley's proposal to decouple American AI capabilities from China.
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Notes
The Entropy Wall, the Brain and Gödel: A Readable Thought Experiment
A readable thought experiment on information loss in neural networks, what makes brains different, and where Gödel's theorem does and does not apply.
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Neural Networks, Human Brains and Gödel: A Mathematical Thought Experiment
A mathematical thought experiment on information bottlenecks, neural networks, human cognition and the limits of using Gödel as an AI analogy.
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Notes
A Toy Model of Human Intelligence: Neurons, Connections, Learning and Speed
A speculative model of intelligence built around four variables: available neurons, established connections, learning rate and transmission speed.
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Notes
Three Ways to Judge a Natural Language
A compact framework for judging natural language by what it can describe across breadth, depth and time.
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Notes
Calculus as a Basic Way of Seeing the World
A calculus metaphor for a familiar puzzle: why someone with more knowledge can still produce work that falls short of an earlier master's.
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Notes
Thinking in Time: The Mental Cost of Adding Another Dimension
Thinking across a time axis can sharpen judgment, but it also makes truth feel temporary and turns foresight into a source of anxiety.
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Notes
Did Twenty Years of Development Make Life Better?
A time-travel thought experiment for asking whether twenty years of development have actually improved everyday life.
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Essay
Economic Notes, July 2024
A July 2024 reflection on life in China's large cities, weak growth, taxes, the RMB, local debt, physical gold and political risk.
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Essay
Economic Commentary and Forecasts, February 2024
A February 2024 economic outlook on China's stocks, debt, property and RMB, plus forecasts for Europe, the United States and Japan.
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Economics
China's Stock Market Crash on February 5, 2024: The Bigger Debt Story
A short February 2024 note arguing that China's stock rout reflected both deteriorating fundamentals and a wider restructuring of local government debt.
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Journal
Blossoms Shanghai, Part One: A Crowded Scroll of a City
A sharp, affectionate review of Blossoms Shanghai, from its social-scroll plot and tangled romances to Wong Kar-wai's sound and images.
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Essay
Economic Forecast, November 2023: China, Europe, the US and Japan
A forecast written in late 2023 on China, Europe, the United States and Japan, covering stimulus, exports, infrastructure, rate cuts, inflation and autos.
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Economics
Rethinking Wealth: Measure Your Share, Not Your Currency Balance
A personal framework for measuring wealth as a share of an economy rather than a nominal amount in fiat currency.
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Essay
Friends Who Drift Away
A short reflection on shared experience, memory and the point at which an old friendship quietly enters drawdown.
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Essay
I Love Shanghai So Damn Much
A very short Halloween note on Shanghai, its people and the city's irresistible sense of humour.
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Essay
China's Economy and What Comes Next: The Micro View
An October 2023 micro outlook on Chinese resilience, property, RMB depreciation, stocks, physical retail and livestream e-commerce.
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Economics
China's Economy and What Comes Next: The Macro View
A September 2023 macro view of China's demographic crisis, down cycle, US-China conflict and Belt and Road strategy.
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Essay
Back in China, August 2023: Notes from Tianjin and Shanghai
A personal return to Tianjin and Shanghai after three and a half years: airports, typhoon rain, startling service, old streets and memories slipping into the present.
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Finance · Forecast
China Economic Forecast, 3 July 2023
Written on 3 July 2023, this essay records forecasts about China's economy and exchange rate, including the US-China relationship, the renminbi, property and liquidity.
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Essay
Why Start a Blog in 2023?
Why restart a personal blog in 2023? Not for traffic or followers, but for play, freedom, and a place to publish whatever comes to mind.
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Essay
Omnipotent Youth Society
A brief note from June 2023 about hearing Omnipotent Youth Society for the first time and rediscovering the song Kill the One from Shijiazhuang.
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